Jared...Crying My Heart Out

My Dearest Jared, 

The time has come...a new future...a new hope....and it's only because of you that our family got to where we are right now. 

As I sit here thinking about how happy I am that we have a new home...my heart aches for you so much right now. I'd rather just have you here with me then to start a new future. I just want you to know that NOTHING in this whole world will ever bring me the JOY that you gave me....for that I am grateful...and I just want to say Thank you for being a part of my life and giving our family a new gift....one that I know you blessed us with. 

Yes.....I am crying...I just do it every now and then...just because my heart aches for you. I want you to be here in this physical world to experience our new future with us. Please continue to give me your strength and stay by my side FOREVER. I love you more than words can say....but you know that.Thank you again for showing me the way to come home when it's time....until then...here is a part of your legacy you've left on this Earth. (Video is a bit jumpy)

Love Mommy 

 

Memory

Wow...I've been gone from here for so long. I just forgot I even had a blog to tell you the truth. There's been so much going on in my life right now. I'm back for now. So, anyway... Here's what's been going on... My beautiful niece just graduated from school and I am so proud of her. She and my son (who passed away a few years ago)were close in age(a month apart)so my son would have graduated also this year. I really miss him soooo much especially when I know this would have been a special time in his life. Don't get me wrong....I am so happy that I got to see my niece graduate...but at the same time a little sad...that he wasn't here. I miss you so much Jared and I am so happy that I still have so many memories of you. Although it still hurts so much inside, I have so much to be thankful for. So I leave now with a song. Thanks for reading.