Jared...Crying My Heart Out

My Dearest Jared, 

The time has come...a new future...a new hope....and it's only because of you that our family got to where we are right now. 

As I sit here thinking about how happy I am that we have a new home...my heart aches for you so much right now. I'd rather just have you here with me then to start a new future. I just want you to know that NOTHING in this whole world will ever bring me the JOY that you gave me....for that I am grateful...and I just want to say Thank you for being a part of my life and giving our family a new gift....one that I know you blessed us with. 

Yes.....I am crying...I just do it every now and then...just because my heart aches for you. I want you to be here in this physical world to experience our new future with us. Please continue to give me your strength and stay by my side FOREVER. I love you more than words can say....but you know that.Thank you again for showing me the way to come home when it's time....until then...here is a part of your legacy you've left on this Earth. (Video is a bit jumpy)

Love Mommy 

 

Memory

Wow...I've been gone from here for so long. I just forgot I even had a blog to tell you the truth. There's been so much going on in my life right now. I'm back for now. So, anyway... Here's what's been going on... My beautiful niece just graduated from school and I am so proud of her. She and my son (who passed away a few years ago)were close in age(a month apart)so my son would have graduated also this year. I really miss him soooo much especially when I know this would have been a special time in his life. Don't get me wrong....I am so happy that I got to see my niece graduate...but at the same time a little sad...that he wasn't here. I miss you so much Jared and I am so happy that I still have so many memories of you. Although it still hurts so much inside, I have so much to be thankful for. So I leave now with a song. Thanks for reading.

Ordinary World

Hi readers. I know that I don't post a lot but it's because a lot of times I don't have anything that I want to put here. However, I do want to have a meaningful blog so right now there is nothing more meaningful than this post. This post is dedicated to one of the most special people in my life. As a matter of fact, this person gave me and continues to give me so much of myself that I didn't know was there. He is the one who I fell in love with many years ago. He and I have been through so much together. Just recently, I have been in a very bad place with myself and trying to push my husband away from me because I know how much he loves me and I felt I wasn't doing the same and it isn't fair to him to let him love me that much, while I was giving up on myself. If I don't love myself, how can I even begin to try and love someone else? However, there is something inside myself that gives me strength and makes me realize HOW MUCH I really love my husband and how much it means to me to hold on to that love and never give up. All I need to do is listen to OUR song...this song came out around the time we started dating and was the song we played for our first dance at our wedding. For many years we had a not so ordinary world....this song means a lot to me in many ways and I always think about my husband when I hear this and I only love him more and more.

Pinterest

Hi everyone, I haven't posted in a while. I have to admit....I've been too busy pinning on Pinterest. Do you know how addicting that is once you start? Are any of you on there? If so, I'm sure you know what I mean. There are so many sites that I visit throughout my day, but once I log onto my Pinterest account, that's it. I'm pinning things from all over the place. Most of the time, it's things I see on websites or whatever and I want to "pin" the site or image so I can revisit it later (like recipes). It's also a place to separate all my favorite ideas for things and put them into categories that I choose. Well...I just love it. Come check out my boards and if you don't have an invite which you need to get started, I'll be glad to send you an invite.
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